I remember the moment clearly when I realized AND vocalized this: I am tired of not having any self esteem.
I felt at rock bottom.
I felt low.
I felt unworthy.
I felt like something needed to change.
So I stepped out in faith to the unknown.
I signed up for a 12 week healing/therapy group.
My desire to change my mind about myself was greater than wanting to give up. THANK Creator! Otherwise, I would have given up on myself years ago.
This group was absolutely a stepping stone to the next and the next and the next!!
I then pursued therapy & more healing groups. I also was connected to my other self care practices such as working out, running, writing music, church & my dog (AWEEE long live Roxy!).
At this time in my life, I was not really connected to ceremony. I stepped out in faith (again!) to attend my first sweat lodge ceremony, I absolutely KNEW this was what I needed in my life.
The words the Elder spoke after I crawled on the earth & into the lodge -Welcome Home.
This was a spiritual awakening. MY spiritual awakening.
I had this new connection to Creator, to ceremony, to motherearth and to myself.
I am still on this healing journey but I can say today with all of my heart "I love myself".
Half of my life, I wished I could have been born someone else.
I cursed my brown skin & distinct Cree features.
There was a time I couldn't even look in the mirror because I was so ashamed of myself.
So it has been a long journey to get here.
My spirit name is Hummingbird Dancer.
I believe if anything, I am just a messenger.
I have been so blessed to have had many amazing teachers, mentors, matriarchs, ceremonies, experiences, therapy sessions & intensive healing retreats.
I created The Medicine You Are Workshop to guide others to their own love, acceptance, healing, nurturing & medicine.
It is stepping stone to bring you closer to you!
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